Seems like no matter how much I try, I just can not seem to convey to my children, just how much I love them. The sad thing is, for my twins' birthday the other day, I made them a book made out of playing cards titled, '52 Reason's Why I Love You' & let me tell you, trying to come up w/104 reasons why you love your children in a short period of time is not so easy. Not that I don't have 52 reasons for each child, as to why I love them, but to label those reasons into minute 'titles' can be challenging. Especially since I already have such a difficult time just trying to fully express my unconditional love for them in a way that they would truly see & understand. I'm a very hands on & affectionate Mama. In fact, I'm pretty sure my kids are super tired of my always kissing them millions of times throughout the day along w/tons of hugs & even 'cutie buns' pinches....yes, I still pinch my kids on the buns even though they probably think they're too old for that. They will always be my babies w/the cutie buns & I will pinch, if given the opportunity. All of which are signs of my Motherly love for my babies.
My parents always said, 'You'll understand when you have kids of your own, but not until than'.....As much as I would like to say, I knew before having kids just how much my parents loved me because I loved them so much, they're probably right. You really don't know what it is to truly love someone so much until you actually have a child of your own. It's just a super powerful, uncontrollable, unexplainable feeling. Up until I had kids, I could hide my emotions from the outside world, now I proudly wear them on my sleeves for the world to see. There is not a single thing I would NOT do for my children. If I could give them the world, I would in a heart beat, but to do so might hurt them & so, in so many ways, it's probably good that I can't. I only want the best for my children, to keep being wonderful, loving, sincere, intelligent good people. I've never known such unique kids like mine. They have the world at their fingertips & it's almost like they know it, but have a huge respect for that. I love it! I love that about my children. I want what every Mother wants I'm sure. That my kids grow up to be successful & happy in life. When I say successful & happy, sure I want them to obtain good providing jobs, but more than that, I want them to live their life. I want to see them take on challenges & succeed, choose to do what they want & to be happy with those choices. Sure I want to see them go off to a good college & get some awesometastic degree, but just the same, if it turns out that what they want to do in life does not require college, I will be supportive of that too....so long as it does not include surfing from one couch to the next in one home to another. I want them to make plans & have goals they want to achieve & then to achieve those goals head on, but most of all, I want them to do it in a way that does not hurt others nor does it cheat them. I want them to always know that through out all of their life's journey, they have God to depend on through out all of it & above everyone that they will ever know in life. I want to see that they truly are respectful of life whether it's theirs or someone else, that they give when they have more than they need, respect everyone they encounter & show the world what it means to be a good person, not just someone who can earn a large pay check. Although, I don't know any parents out there yet who wouldn't mind their child making good money & being financially independent. :0) Everything I say, I'm sure could speak for every other parent out there & how they see & feel for their children. I guess today, I just felt the need to express such feelings on my blog. :0) Today I will yet again, make it a point to hug my kids as often as possible & squeeze them as tightly as my arms will allow, kiss em' a minimum of 7 times on their cheeks & maybe sneak in a pinch or two on their other 'cheeks'! haha! Hope you all have a blessed & wonderful Sunday & a great beginning to the work week ahead!
I gave my boyfriend a deck of cards earlier this year with 52 reasons I love him, and, you're right, it was not easy at all! Not because we don't know why we love them; it's just hard to put it all into words sometimes. It's so awesome that you did this for your children. How did you make it into a book? I love that this book is something they can keep with them for the rest of their lives.
ReplyDeleteAnd it is so true... having a child totally changes/enhances one's view of love. Every word you wrote in this post speaks to the heart. Thank you so much for sharing such beautiful truths.